Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Superbia

Pride.. Do i have too much of it..Fifi's been telling me that I'm too prideful, and im trying to change that.. been trying to figure out what my problem is.. seems like its affecting quite some parts of my life..

1st of all is my relationship with fifi.. and its the biggest problem.. maybe i have too much pride to apologise and just leave it at that.. I always had to find some reason to defend myself.. maybe im too proud to admit tt im at fault.. I tot tt this sinful deluded-ness would end here, but today I realise while sparring tt its entirely in me all this while..

I guess im too proud once again to admit tt i actually suck at sparring.. I see everyone improving by leaps and bounds.. but im still stuck there.. if not backsliding.. 'I think tt i can beat everyone, just be stronger than them'.. tts wats constantly on my mind.. disregarding the advantages n disadvantages in a fight, i just take everything n hit them back. 'he hits hard' - "i'll jus hit harder"
'hes fast' "I'll just be faster" dunno when will i be able to change this bad habit of mine tt doesnt acknowledge my weaknesses.. mowadays i will even flinch when the opponent attacks.. and i noe there is sth seriously wrong with my fighting style, but i don noe what.. they say tts or me to find out myself..

well.. all i can do is to keep fighting, and find the answer somehow..
maybe i can find the root of my problem.. the one with Fifi too..

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Posted by hmmm.. at 8:39 AM